hermit

until june 2009 i am going to have to survive something like 5 quid per day, including everything. nothing drastic, just a kind of come-uppance for having been a spoilt brat for 28 long years, feeding off the umbilical cord. the cord is now finally 2 way, and there are deficits to fill. when i was a student, i didn't think about it; when i was earning 25k p.a., i didn't bother; when i was completely dependent on my job and my company and my boss's moods, i didn't look beyond my next expensive chocolate fix. suddenly now, with more income and more freedom than ever before, i am in a complete paradox. in the middle of the recession and with job security an unknown quantity and therefore more stress and uncertainty, i am broke beyond belief. i cannot afford taxis, new shoes, new clothes, drinking out, eating out, and therefore any modicum of socialising or even meeting boys and grinding up against the naughty ones. and whatnot. this will last until at least june, more of course if i get laid off. then i'll have to write a different blog post of course, with a new equation.

contrary to expectation, i feel very relieved. i am hermit. i will blissfully hide, and crawl out only to commune with river or golden sun. wish i could get paid without going in to work as well. that would be peaches.