When you look forward to something and then kind of want it to be over

Seduced once more by a Distant Utopia
Reality is disappointing
This may an acute crisis of personal life
[As opposed to work life or job life]
[or love life]
Whereby I am forever disconnected from the immediate
Lost in a dream of
Yearning for
[Ever awaiting, procrastinating, limping between foggy milestones]
Something to finally engage with
With all my heart and soul