?!?!? et tu River

abbe hadd ho gayi! the river is fucking around with me. it welcomes me back with open arm and breezy bridge one day, making me think corny homecoming thoughts - then i find i've lost a very very valuable. now today it gleams innocently in the 11 pm twilight, and as i breathe in the onset of summer - it reminds me that i've made my first big work fuckup at this job.

matlab? i'm not allowed to be all headily in love with it anymore or what? am i being punished? is there a lesson here? Oh! is it sulky about my 3 month disappearance and taking petty little bits of revenge? hmmm...