stop.

it's the oldest one in the book. you fall for someone who is unavailable, hoping that one day they will become available. but they NEVER leave the girlfriend / wife / first mistress. and especially never in time for it to matter to you. you close your eyes to hard facts, living in your sweet interpretations of daily actions. some are truly sweet.

old fool

my sadness is valid, because it was a pretty special hope while it lasted. time now to mope a little, pity self a little, and then get over it.